我真的真的很失望
真的真的哭了
真的真的累了
不要再问我为什么
我不想对任何人解释
就当作一切都没有发生过
好傻好傻。。

i'm under anesthesia.

the key, is the part of my heart...

but maybe.. it's meaningless to you, or to me...

there's no one who'll be there...

listening to me

talking with me

accompany me..

no. not him. it's just a joke.

ridiculous. how can that be true?

neither...him.

i should be independent by myself.

it's useless for waiting

that's just a dream.

day-dream.

but why on earth am i still thinking then?

because at last i always found out that i'm standing there alone

alone.. again..

this is so ridiculous.

a dream is a dream.

it never comes true.

even in my dream when i'm sleeping.

okay okay..

positive thinking.

i can reduce the number of my phone bill.

true, isn't it?

haha...

yeah...

duhh. i'm still thinking about it.

and there's only one way i can cure myself

it's...to paralyze myself

on studying...

on dancing...

on anything. whatever.

just nothing dangerous.

aarrggghh.

what the devil am i supposed to do now?????

bewitched. ><

it was the first time i'd fell so hard into love.
correction. just a type of feeling. love isn't the right description +.+
it was the first time i'd been such a jealous whinger
and i hate myself acting like this. couldn't me just ignore those annoying things? it's always driving me to hell.
it was the first time i wannna hold someone's hand and never wanted to let go.
well although i did let go...
but that doesn't mean that i really wanted to do this!!
it's the first time you treated me so gently.
and i never ever thought of this before.
it's kinda weird, you know, just too suddenly.
but deeply in the bottom of my heart, i know i like it very very very much. ==

now what? i have no idea what's going to happen next.
maybe it's a tragedy? or somewhat--happy ending. ohh i don't know.
let's just hope everything will be fine, and no one gets hurt.
i'm trying to look as if it sounds nothing to me
hiding my exitement
hiding my feelings
don't want anybody's sympathy
i just... missed u so..

外婆家总是那么的幽静
小时候常玩的那个大大的秋千
何时已变得那么矮小
我坐在白色的秋千
听着‘ 同一个遗憾 ’
四周仿佛传来海浪拍打沙滩的声音
那么的让人陶醉
那么的让人沉醉在回忆中
轻轻的摇着
好像催眠曲
柔和的阳光
让我不禁想起。。
你。 =）

从明天起，这个星期
每天都会去练舞
虽然会比较忙，
可是。。。
我会让生活更加的充实
更加的美好。 =）

昨天晚上从8点练舞练到10点多
感觉好像回到很久以前
我还在小学的时候。。
熟悉的舞蹈室
现在好像有种回到家的感觉~
XD
今天8点半左右去到baby家后面的公园
和国顺，渊阳，鸣浩，迪生，姐，yingye 和 baby 一起聚会，打篮球
真的很好玩
不过姐，yingye 和 baby 就一直说我和国顺。。 zzz. ==
人家有心上人了啦。
鸣浩，好久没看到他了
瘦了很多
也帅了很多 XD
玩到11 点多才回家
真的没有试过这么开心~

bac to the stage.

mm-mm.
daddy went to china, guangzhou today at 5:30 a.m.
well... kinda free now.
but not absolutely. mummy's still here. +.+
but i'm in such good mood. tremendously excited.
cause i'm going bac to the dancing class -- to dance! ---obviously...==---
oohh..
i missed the way we dance together
missed the way we stand upon the stage
missed the dance studio
misssed everything...

and from tommorow onwards...
everything's gonna happen again-!

okay change the topic.
i realised...
there's no one who i can really trust on
don't wanna believe what they'd said to me...
although they said they'd seen it...
with they own eyes...
it can't be true right???
i don't believe she really said that...
duhh. well...
probably it's true. i don't even wanna think about it...

five days holiday again.
we don't really hav much time to stay together anymore...

我，单纯得可笑。。

单纯的以为

单纯的期待

单纯的笑着

原来并没有我想象中的那样。。

单纯。

原来你还是那样

原来事情还是没有变。。

小说里描述的那种心情

心口好像被什么东西压抑着

痛得无法呼吸

喉咙好像被什么嗑住了

想说什么却说不出口。。

我曾经以为

那只是假象

可是

我却真的感觉到了。。