it's happening again.

yeap. I'm fully aware that she might be taking over my place*
maybe they think it's ridiculous but.
I care for it. I really care about it.
She's funny. popular ( at least, in our class ).
and the most important part is -
she's really very close with all of them.



I don't wish to repeat all the unhappy circumstances
that happened in winter camp,
so I'm trying my best to ignore HER,
which ached my feelings.
I have always been frustrated with myself,
by not knowing how to make friends..



now I've found three best ones,
and i know i'll face load of problems,
just like what's happening right now.

如果可以再重来...

我这又是怎么了?
为什么只是再靠近他一点点
那种感觉又全回来了
而且这次好强烈好强烈


如果一开始已经是个错
那我该怎么办?
是否该继续错下去
还是让事情回到当初的那个情景
我还能够拿着笔
给他签名?
事情已经快要过去一年了
我好想做个了断
只因为讨厌这样逃避他的自己


短暂的屏息
不规律的心跳
仿佛在告诉我自己
他一直都在你心里
只是你不愿意去在意
也想趁机忘记...

courage? confidence?

宜华 如果我是你
该有多好
至少你们之间的距离 只差那么一点点
怪只怪我 没有那份勇气去争取
我常自责 可是始终都不曾付出行动
为什么 我问自己
犹豫什么 害怕什么
他们都说他与别人说话的时候都没有正视别人
那我呢
我又算得了什么
如果他胆小
那我懦弱
如果他也拿出了那份勇气
我也可以吗？



从来不曾这样
胆小得连我自己都不敢想象
或许我可以耸耸肩
说声没什么
可是为什么心里还存有那么点不甘 那么点犹豫
想做就去做啊.


看着别人都嘻嘻哈哈地说着他的幽默
间接地
嘲笑了我的懦弱
如果给我一分钟
正视他的眼睛
我想心底的那份勇气
会渐渐的萌生吧.

' 想做就去做呗 '
我想克服
真的想克服...

the other way round.

back from BISDS youth camp.
I was actually quite disappointed -
it was still interesting
but last year's was awesome.
I remained silent ( as usual )
because I seriously . seriously. have no idea of making friends.
okay. maybe i have. but I hesitated.
it has always been driving me crazy.

hmm back to the main topic.
I think BMV's toilet is disgusting
but seriously. IMPIAN camp site's worse. than ever.


the obstacle course. I see.
when i fell down from the slope -
I really wanted to cry. for heaven's sake.
It was awful!

balance and conquer.
I like that. especially the game after this activity.
i don't know what it's called -
but i shivered in cold when they splashed me with water.
it was the first time i find my teeth shivering! XD

and the last. camp fire.
damn it was raining through the whole day.
so we went back to the hall instead.
I love the games and I laughed throughout the entire activity
X)

i still remembered that ' uncle ' said
" MACAM NENEK "
" SAYA CAKAP 'SAYA BOLEH' , KAMU CAKAP 'YES!YES!YES!' "
and our project with ' JUSTIN BIEBER INSPIRES '
the sketch related to cancer-
it was all so funny.


maybe it was not so dull.
I just have to learn to enjoy it.
=)

the way i hated and missed.

okayy.
boredom.
still can't believe form 2 school days are over..
everything's happening like a jolt of lightning
i just can't hold on to something.



flashback.
they're all memories.
i know form 2 wasn't an awesome one
but still.
i missed it.



2 ai.
the way we used to laugh
the way we shouted
the way we went crazy
and now.
goodbye and for all.. ;)

i missed.

i wished we were still friends
i wished everything was back to normal
but it wasn't
and that's it?
i don't even have a chance to say anything?
the days we've went through
it's spinning in my mind
why can't we just get over it?
i don't understand . really .

the end.

today's the last day of school.
yeah. and my birthday.
thanks for the present and cards. dears.

wannie
jing ying
紫绮

i love it as much as i love you guys. =)

and everyone else for the wishes.

oh and girls.
thanks for helping to take pictures of me and him.
okay. at least i won't have any regrets in this year.. ;)
i wasn't that emotional like last year,
but it's still my class.
and i still have some feelings for it.
maybe we aren't classmates anymore.
but at least we were =)

form 3.
it's a new start.