cheers! :D

有一种尖锐 在心里搁浅
寂寞时特别强烈
呼吸 刺痛 纠结

有一些笑脸 公式化出现
计算出快乐假面
是痊癒 还是上了麻醉

放了自己 放了回忆
放了世界不过如此而已
多少庆幸 多少风景
在放了之后才清晰
放了自己 放了回忆
放了那 配不上你的伤心
你该诠释的不再是悲剧主角的残影
而是新的自己

你有过期待 也有过等待
满腔热血只无奈
现实 报废 浪漫
人群中进行 孤单时复习
你的坚强很争气
只是怎麽学不会忘记

当那幸福的号志 又一如往常的亮起
笑着放了自己♥






昨天 考了钢琴
真的很紧张 也失了水准==
不过 考过也考过了
往前看吧(:


说真的 觉得自己有点可悲
以前 至少和yy是好朋友
现在这样， 算什么?
明明就不是很了解他
甚至谈不上是朋友
一直存有的那种感觉，
算不算是一种盲目的崇拜?

也许等到哪一天，
我会笑自己当时的傻(;

because time heals everything(:

woots.
loads of exams coming up, piano practical exam and school workk.
and i'm still here, pouring my pressure (:
i nearly cried on friday, thinking of those things that happened earlier.
everyday i woke up, the first thing that came up my mind was that-
not to mention here, it was such a sudden.
i even dreamt of them, happily ever after.
maybe it's a chance to forget, to let go and take things easier.
maybe i'll realize everything wasn't that difficult??
but it takes time.





say goodbye,
because goodbye means going away
& going away means forgetting.

nothing matters.

I keep daydreaming for these few days,
wondering how will my future be, and thinking about relationships.
seriously, I hate relationships.
why should we relate ourselves with others?
connection makes problems.




thought of joining REDDY's cheer,
but first I need my body to be flexible enough><
maybe i'm not so enthusiastic about dancing,
but i still loved the stage(:
i feel like i belong to it.

明明知道自己占有欲很强
也知道自己因此已经失去了很多
不要重蹈复撤了
再这样下去
苦的只会是自己

the fact of being a coward.

walk like you own the place
talk like you know it all
and act like no one
can make you fall-

wanna start a conversation ( is it so difficult???? )
don't runaway when you see him ( omg you're so childish )
go straight in front of him and stand still ( please don't panic )
look into his eyes and hold for at least ONE minute ( this is stupid )


well I don't think I can do this...

come on- all I want was just friends
who greet each other when they meeeeet. ><

runaway.

I need a tablespoon of courage and confidence♥

photos instead of words(:

stop being so emotional at school><

it's happening again.

yeap. I'm fully aware that she might be taking over my place*
maybe they think it's ridiculous but.
I care for it. I really care about it.
She's funny. popular ( at least, in our class ).
and the most important part is -
she's really very close with all of them.



I don't wish to repeat all the unhappy circumstances
that happened in winter camp,
so I'm trying my best to ignore HER,
which ached my feelings.
I have always been frustrated with myself,
by not knowing how to make friends..



now I've found three best ones,
and i know i'll face load of problems,
just like what's happening right now.

如果可以再重来...

我这又是怎么了?
为什么只是再靠近他一点点
那种感觉又全回来了
而且这次好强烈好强烈


如果一开始已经是个错
那我该怎么办?
是否该继续错下去
还是让事情回到当初的那个情景
我还能够拿着笔
给他签名?
事情已经快要过去一年了
我好想做个了断
只因为讨厌这样逃避他的自己


短暂的屏息
不规律的心跳
仿佛在告诉我自己
他一直都在你心里
只是你不愿意去在意
也想趁机忘记...