because time heals everything(:

woots.
loads of exams coming up, piano practical exam and school workk.
and i'm still here, pouring my pressure (:
i nearly cried on friday, thinking of those things that happened earlier.
everyday i woke up, the first thing that came up my mind was that-
not to mention here, it was such a sudden.
i even dreamt of them, happily ever after.
maybe it's a chance to forget, to let go and take things easier.
maybe i'll realize everything wasn't that difficult??
but it takes time.





say goodbye,
because goodbye means going away
& going away means forgetting.

nothing matters.

I keep daydreaming for these few days,
wondering how will my future be, and thinking about relationships.
seriously, I hate relationships.
why should we relate ourselves with others?
connection makes problems.




thought of joining REDDY's cheer,
but first I need my body to be flexible enough><
maybe i'm not so enthusiastic about dancing,
but i still loved the stage(:
i feel like i belong to it.

明明知道自己占有欲很强
也知道自己因此已经失去了很多
不要重蹈复撤了
再这样下去
苦的只会是自己

the fact of being a coward.

walk like you own the place
talk like you know it all
and act like no one
can make you fall-

wanna start a conversation ( is it so difficult???? )
don't runaway when you see him ( omg you're so childish )
go straight in front of him and stand still ( please don't panic )
look into his eyes and hold for at least ONE minute ( this is stupid )


well I don't think I can do this...

come on- all I want was just friends
who greet each other when they meeeeet. ><

runaway.

I need a tablespoon of courage and confidence♥

photos instead of words(:

stop being so emotional at school><

it's happening again.

yeap. I'm fully aware that she might be taking over my place*
maybe they think it's ridiculous but.
I care for it. I really care about it.
She's funny. popular ( at least, in our class ).
and the most important part is -
she's really very close with all of them.



I don't wish to repeat all the unhappy circumstances
that happened in winter camp,
so I'm trying my best to ignore HER,
which ached my feelings.
I have always been frustrated with myself,
by not knowing how to make friends..



now I've found three best ones,
and i know i'll face load of problems,
just like what's happening right now.

如果可以再重来...

我这又是怎么了?
为什么只是再靠近他一点点
那种感觉又全回来了
而且这次好强烈好强烈


如果一开始已经是个错
那我该怎么办?
是否该继续错下去
还是让事情回到当初的那个情景
我还能够拿着笔
给他签名?
事情已经快要过去一年了
我好想做个了断
只因为讨厌这样逃避他的自己


短暂的屏息
不规律的心跳
仿佛在告诉我自己
他一直都在你心里
只是你不愿意去在意
也想趁机忘记...

courage? confidence?

宜华 如果我是你
该有多好
至少你们之间的距离 只差那么一点点
怪只怪我 没有那份勇气去争取
我常自责 可是始终都不曾付出行动
为什么 我问自己
犹豫什么 害怕什么
他们都说他与别人说话的时候都没有正视别人
那我呢
我又算得了什么
如果他胆小
那我懦弱
如果他也拿出了那份勇气
我也可以吗？



从来不曾这样
胆小得连我自己都不敢想象
或许我可以耸耸肩
说声没什么
可是为什么心里还存有那么点不甘 那么点犹豫
想做就去做啊.


看着别人都嘻嘻哈哈地说着他的幽默
间接地
嘲笑了我的懦弱
如果给我一分钟
正视他的眼睛
我想心底的那份勇气
会渐渐的萌生吧.

' 想做就去做呗 '
我想克服
真的想克服...